September 2010
15 posts
So, I’m Home!! Thank the Gods!! I actually got home yesterday….but I was SOOOO fucking Tired there was NO way I could have made ANY coherent sentences…not that I usually do…but at least I usually Attempt to make sense!!
The weekend was Wonderful!! It was a little long..but being able to see Marianas Trench live and in person was SOOOOO FUCKING WONDERFUL!!! OH MY GOD!!!...
August 2010
23 posts
OH MY GOD!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!
OHHHHHH MYYYY FFFUUUUCCKING GOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
In just a couple more minutes we will be leaving for Vancouver….and in just 1 day and 7 hours (that would be 31 freakin hours) I will be standing in front of the stage that holds Marianas Trench!!!
Yeah and I get to spend the day on rides and eating playland junk foods..but mostly I’m just...
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Ok…living in the moment…ummmm not sure how to do that…???
Well at the moment I’m watching the Big Bang Theory…frickin Hilarious!! My son is upstairs either watching tv or playing Playstation!! The girls are outside, probably sitting in the park talking about things I Probably don’t want to know about. They have a friend sleeping over so it’s not just...
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Just 3 more sleeps and I get to see Marianas Trench LIVE!! I Can’t Fucking WAIT!!! This band is without a doubt one of the BEST bands out in the world right now!! And I have a feeling they will be one of the best bands out there for a LONG time to come!! And I get to see them LIVE!! I just wish I had found out about this band a couple years ago…..but I suppose I wasn’t ready...
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Well, I Actually LEFT THE HOUSE!! Yes it’s True folks…I got dressed and left the house to run my errands….well ok I went to the dentist and then got groceries!!
The dentist was uber-easy…I just had to pick up my teeth whitening kit, which looks kinda cool…it’s formed specifically to my teeth, and comes with 3 syringes of the whitening stuff, which one is...
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Ohhhh Man!! SOOOOO NOT fair!! I ran to Wendy’s to grab a quick dinner for my son and me (the girls are at sleepovers) and I got us the usual stuff, PLUS I grabbed some caesar salads…I was MAJORLY craving one…..I got home and was SOOOO looking forward to chowing down on a nice tangy salad…and it’s some “lemon garlic caesar” shit!!! And it tasted...
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I’m home!! I’m Home!! YIPPIE-FUCKING-YAAAWHOOOOO I’m Home!!! Man there are some Freakin LOUSY drivers out there!! A couple of rain drops fall and all of a sudden Everyone slows down to like 10 km/h!! What bullshit!! But I’m home now….I guess it didn’t help much that I forgot my pills….I Kinda NEED my pills….I have mentioned that I’m...
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Man I have the Worse headache right now!! It’s going right from the top of my head, down the right side of my skull and into my neck and throat!! My tongue even feels swollen from it all!!
I think it’s just the fucking heat!! Will Summer EVER FUCKING END????? Add that heat to all the smoke in the air from all the forest fires…and it’s not really a surprise that I have...
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I Actually TRIED to go out today!! I got dressed in my new pants and t shirt…did my hair fairly nice (Definitely need a hair cut…appt is on Friday morning), didn’t put on make-up…but that was more cause it was too fucking HOT to stay upstairs in the bathroom any longer!! I even put together a book, my journal and the latest copy of Cosmo into my backpack!! Then I drove...
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I have been TRYING to write this fucking post for about 4 hours now!! I have typed and deleted my words SOOOOOO many times I’m not even sure what I am trying to say any more!!
I Know I need to lose weight…ALOT of weight….but then I figure, why bother?? Who would ever look at me anyway?? I know I am going to be alone for the rest of my life anyway, so why should I even...
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well so far this mission SUCKS!!
I haven’t been doing ANYTHING towards my goals….I’m not even sure if the goals I set out are ones I really want or even NEED to work on!!
I do need a job…but in order to get a job that is right for me, which means a job that challenges me, lets me grow, lets me learn and lets me teach, a job where I feel I’m part of a team,...
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It’s 2:11 in the afternoon, I’m sitting here in my pj’s and I am SOOOOOO anxious and I don’t know why??!!
I know I’m wasting my life just sitting here, but when I go out there’s nothing out there for me. There is only so many times I can walk around a mall, especially when I’m by myself. Yesterday I went down to the wharf and sat on the grass for a...
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OH MY GOD!!! I Swear I got the crap beaten out of me last night!!! Every muscle in my body HURTS!!! Especially the arms and across the shoulder blades!! I don’t know if it’s a hold over from the migraine headache I had last night?? Or maybe it’s a side effect from the pills I took for said headache….or maybe someone snuck in and beat the shit outta me??? Whatever happened…I wish it would GO...
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it’s 4:06 am and I’m still awake…I’m Tired and my eyes are burning…but I know that as soon as I get into my bed and turn off the lights my brain will start working at warp speed!!
“what am I doing with my life??”
“will I ever find a good job that I really fit into??”
“will I ever have friends again??”
“what should I do...
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I just don’t know what to do any more…I’m soooo fucking tired of this roller coaster ride of emotional hell!! When I’m up…I’m sooo terrified of the crash that it’s almost impossible for me to do anything!! And when I’m down…well…I’m just too down to even Want to do things!!
And the last couple of days have been extra...
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i seem to have a small obsession with a guy that not only will i NEVER actually Meet, but IF by some weird cosmic alignment i Did meet this guy, (he’s a 26 yr old rocker from BC who is Majorly HOT HOT HOT, not to mention talented and funny and sexy and did I mention HOT HOT HOT!!!) he would NEVER be interested in a fat, uninteresting, 44 yr old single mother of 3 teenagers. but i still...
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it’s soooooo quiet in this house!! even the cat is outside!! the girls are shopping with their grandma in chilliwack, they catch the plane tomorrow for hawaii..i’m SOOO jealous!! :( but they are going to have soooo much fun!! Greg is camping with his dad, the weather is iffy at best…but then it might just be all the fire smoke in the air??
yesterday was pretty good, had fun...
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AARRRGGGGG…..i’ve about HAD IT with kids!!! i sooooooo NEED a break from them!! thank the Gods that the girls leave for hawaii with my mom tomorrow and the boy goes to his fathers for the weekend!! the girls will be gone for almost 2 weeks and even though greg will be here, he’s usually hiding out in his room playing his xbox, or watching movies…or more than likely...
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today was actually pretty fun!! Last night I made a mistake of telling my daughter that IF my money was deposited today we would go to Vernon to go shopping for her new swim suit….well She was up at like 7 AM!! at about 8:30 am my arm started MAJORLY hurting, i must have slept on it wrong…stupid thing woke me up and it was hard for me to fall asleep again…Especially since Carly...
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so it was an interesting sort of day!! started WAY too early, with my daughters friend phoning for her!! I then did my usual stuff…played on the puter, watched tv, same shit different day.
Sometime around noonish, I got a phone call from my dentist….2 reasons for the phone call, one is it’s time for my girls check up, and 2…I won the cavity free draw!! I had my choice...
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i just want to sit here and cry
why? cause i am just so fucking Lonely!!!
i’m not talking about missing men and missing sex, which is a pretty major part of it all, but i miss having just friends!! some one i could just talk to, either in person or on line or on the phone or…god…i don’t care how…i just want a friend.
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so why didn’t I write anything yesterday?? I’m not really sure….I did have things I wanted to say. Not that I did a lot yesterday, not physically…mentally it was a humdinger of a day.
My day started with a nightmare, it was a nice dream to begin with, I was with a guy who seemed to really like me, and I really liked him, then all of a sudden he turned on me and I was...
